Thanks Mishel. I dealt with anger a lot too. Mostly from realizing I had been duped for so long. It's the indignation that comes with realizing you have been supporting and promoting wolves. You feel spiritually stupid. It's humiliating. Plus, having looked at myself through the Word, such as 2 Tim 4:4-5, I realized that I had fleshly reasons to believe all these things I was being told. I bought into what they were selling. I wanted God to make a Paradise out of my temporal life. That's the hook for these people to use. Just let me confess it or praise and worship God enough. Once He inhabits those praises, my troubles will be over. Demons will be dispelled. Divine health will manifest itself in me.

Speaking of which: Rick Joyner claimed that Jesus gave him unimpeded access to the tree of life now in TFQ. I saw the hypocrisy in such a thing very starkly. Again, it hits home. I had a desire see the curse of Adam on my body reversed to some degree in this life. "Why couldn't I just have one good bite of that fruit now?" my imagination would drift off to at times.

What a flagrant lie for him to claim access to that Tree (for good-old-Rick, of course - not for you or me). Apparently, we don't have enough eye-blinding humility to arm ourselves with to get it. (That is a Final Quest reference. He makes the absurd claim that God-given humility makes even angels bow to you). Anyway, that tree doesn't seem to be working very well for Rick. I notice that his hair is still white. The tree hasn't been able to revert it to its original color. And he still has that stomach paunch stuck there by cortisol.

I am abashed that this is what my flesh wanted too. We want to overturn (by a wave of God's hand) what He had so firmly set against man. God denied the tree of life to man in this age for a good reason. He did not want sinners who could not die exploiting the earth's resources and committing sins like demons. No. Man became unworthy of such a blessing. Even when Jesus was here and did all of His miracles, absolutely none of them restored anyone to the pre-fall condition. They were restored to wholeness, but every one of them has died in a natural time frame. Even Lazarus who was resurrected after being dead for 4 days, has been dead for over 1900 years now.

Jesus definitely has withheld that particular "best wine to last" (Revelation 2:7) It is not for man in his corrupt state to have such a thing now. The body is dead because of sins. The execution must be carried out on all, even on us believers.

These Third Wavers and NARs and WOF have a vast, willing audience of supporters who have not let go of this life and happily listen to preposterous promises. They'll put up all the money they have to overturn God's Word against sinful man. Isn't that what Antichrist will offer? Joyner's ilk is paving the way for him.